Friday, November 7, 2008

7 Nov 08 - Stones under polishing

recently i've been thinking.. why do people complain about their work, colleagues, boss or even their friends? lunch time is a good time to mingle and share with colleagues, but also a good time to complain??

ok, pouring out woes and sharing frustration is good and healthy but beware - there is a thin line between sharing and gossipping. personally, when the topic has gone beyond how you feel about the issue, and gone into sharing personnal comments about the person, that is gossip. gossip does not necessary need to bitch about his personal affairs, but simply 'sharing' with others how 'bad' you feel that person is - that is gossip.

first of all, i wonder how do you judge? maybe he is having a bad day, maybe he is also finding ways to improve himself in life (perhaps not in the generally well-acceptable way), or maybe he is just really out to make your life difficult.. what's wrong with that? we are all created differently, put in a different environments hence different values and attitudes. generally we all behave differently, our ideas are different.. why do we allow our lives to be miserable by harbouring all these complaints on these differences? will these gossip make him a better person? i believe everyone of us are called to 'polish' one another, just like how raw stones go through all the grinding and rubbing to polish themselves into gems. yes-he is making your life difficult, but it has a PURPOSE!

before we complain that he's purposely making life difficult for us, very often i wonder - are we also making life difficult for others (knowingly and UNknowingly)? i know i have always try to be a friendly friend and colleague, but there are times i just get on people's nerves with my friendliness. let alone the times i purposely make things difficult for some, just because i am not in the mood to be accommodating.

listening to all these complaints.. i can only smile.. not to condone their 'harmless' judgement, but i pray one day people will come to realise the imperfection in every of us, including themselves. especially so for us Christians, we proclaim 'love your enemies as yourself' and 'judge not, for the same judgement will be on you', yet the same tendency to judge, to gossip like the world is such a easy entrapment.

... what can i say.... we are all imperfect stones, require one another to grind and polish each other. hopefully, we will be able to shine forth like precious gems after all these uncomfortable friction in polishing process.

Thursday, November 6, 2008

6 Oct 08 - Faith is SIMPLE but requires regular EXERCISE

believe it or not - i'm SO happy today! laughing from inside out.. my God is Living God - He hears and answers prayers!

it started last night when i was praying for one colleague whose church commitment is not really that regular.. immediately after my prayer, she called! (this is the 1st time she's calling outside work-hours) and to my amazement, she actually requested my company to a mid-week service in her church, cos she dun wan to go alone! trust me, she sounded so abashed that i thought it'd be a super-duper huge favour to ask.. of course i agreed! in fact, what an honour to be requested!

the funny thing is.. the sermon topic is on 'PREGNANCY'! i can understand her desire to be fruitful,all who are attending are pregnant/desiring to be pregnant wives...but i'm single! (i even joked with her that what if Holy Spirit falls on all in the room to be pregnant? i do not have the faith like Mother Mary - to be pregnant when single..:D ) well,i went anyway.. all things happen for a reason, just have to be open and learn what He has planned for me..

it's my first time visiting this infamous church and we made it so 'just-in-time' for the service.. the moment i stepped in, i know this is the House of God cos His Presence is already there.. my spirit is stirred up and my tongues just went off.. when our Lord is in the House, nothing and no one else seems to matter anymore(even though i would usually be looking around - normal behaviour for 1st-time visitor).. praise and worship in His Presence is such a joy, i just felt 'at home'..

well, things didnt just stop there.. though the topic is on pregnancy, Pastor Nerida Walker shared her faith in God's Word. this is when my spirit is really jumping.. what a word in season, rhema for me.. All has been done so the we can have fullness of life! Victory has been won at the Cross! God speaks to you through your spirit and heart(faith processor), not through your head(logic processor)... her sharing brought me back to one of Joyce Meyer's sermons - Living with passionate purpose: Choose to do what is right then your feelings will catch up with your choice; When God shows you something He wants you to do, He puts it in your heart; Make a decision based on the Word of God and trusting Him to make your feelings right.... in the end, i came out from the service, being 'pregnant' with so much faith!! it's not emotional faith 'hipe', but a spiritual pat-on-the-back that fills my soul!

Fear has a vision - vision of undesired natural outcome which is earthly bound.
Faith also has a vision - vision of desired supernatural outcome which is Heavenly bound!
How much better is faith! Choose faith today!


i'm so blessed this evening that i cant stop laughing inside and smiling outside. indeed, the joy of the Lord is my strength :) be it single,attached or married, the pilot of my life is JESUS! i'm just His co-pilot! I'm so happy that He IS my Pilot!


Heb 11:1 [AMP]
NOW FAITH is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].

Saturday, November 1, 2008

1 Nov 08 - Arise and Build 2008

(looking at past entries, this journal is turning into a diary soon.. )

this is the first time my A&B pledge is without sobbing and tears.. not cos this pledge does not mean much to me but perhaps i've learnt (still learning) to trust Him.. afterall He did miraculously help and see me thru my depression... If He had put the word in your heart, He WILL bring it to pass. that's one thing i know for sure.. lift it up to Him, trust and wait for Him.. :) He is the Only One who can turn water into wine, heal the lame and raise the dead..

mum n sis finally flying to europe.. dunno if i'd ever have this 'desire' to visit europe, that place has never been in my travel consideration.. but i'm glad my mum is able to visit, esp at her age now. it must be a wonderful cultural exchange for her.. but my next 2 wkends will be challenging cos no need to go market with mum, hence nothing to do, hence boring.. :S good time to laze again??

... remember my old friend? i'm glad he's ok now.. i know it's not easy to accept, i also know he will be able to get thru it. :) happy that i can still keep this old friend :D


Luke 1:37
For nothing is impossible with God