12 Dec 08 - Dreadful Fridays..

before i start.. i have to tell you: MY SISTER IS VERY BEAUTIFUL TONIGHT!! BRIGHTEST,ROUNDEST EVER! VERY VERY VERY BEAUTIFUL!!!
(my bro david said it's the roundest in past 8yrs or 9yrs..i forgot :p )

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prayer request -
i had a good discussion with my cellgroup leader last cg meeting.. i want to return serving in ministry.. i had enough rest when i was 'absent' from CHC.. as much as i wanted to restart slow, but i know i've to serve again.. let the new year be a new great year.

to my surprise,she told me to stay put. it's not that she dun let me serve, but.. she shared a vision abt me.. a 'greater' vision.. i was (still am) taken aback.. that is what i've always wanted to be.. but i just dun ve the faith to serve in that ministry, hence i've kept it to myself.. now that she's opening this vision again, i'm happy yet at the same time.. shaken.. i really dont know how i can serve in that area; all i want is to serve God, serve His people with all I know how. but what a great responsibility in that ministry.. even my buddy Alec dun 'dare' to take up that ministry calling yet..

pray for me, will you? i really need stronger faith to rise up to that calling.. anyway, i'll ve another discussion with her tmr.. pls pray for me..

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i just had a good facial appointment.. on friday night. my good colleague nagged at me for the whole day - why wld i arrange such thing on Friday night when i shld be going out, get to know new friends..

frankly, i wanted to... i wanted to shop, watch movies or even dancing.. but i'm tired of planning something to counteract my dreadful fridays.. i dun like fridays. i'd so much prefer Mondays so i can be at work, knowing it'll be a fruitful n challenging day to start the week.. i know i can join the singles' outing on friday nights if i dun want to plan.. but friday night.. is it not a night to spend with your special one,family or few good friends? it is times like this when i'd feel like doing something but doing nothing in the end.. despite the nagging, she still kept me company for dinner (what a good sport, right?)

on the way to my appointment, i saw this group of young girls on the bus.. all dressed up to club, to dance and sharing their 'dance knowledge' aloud. i smiled.. (they must had seen n known i'm earsdropping them).. those were the days - Nyx and I would meet after work to dance on every Wed, Fri n Sat; still be back in office on next morning for work (nyx n i were colleagues then).. As we dun dance with guys, Nyx was and still is my best n only dance partner so far.. we dance cos we love dancing, not because of 'fishing'.. but since she's gotten married, gone are those good wild days..

Fridays... sigh.. i think i'll rent VCDs to watch on Friday nights from next week onwards.. though i'll be home alone (my sisters usually out with their bfs; parents out to have their 'private time'), at least i still have my son-Hugo and Sydney with me.. that's why my Hugo is my boyfriend+lover+son :)